Thursday, March 15, 2007
1 week of attachment is almost over. 4 days went by. another 6 more days to go. Its really a new experience here @ IMH. I mean. I've met patients who are as young as like 20? And it dawned upon me how sad it is. Trying to imagine myself in her shoes. You know how does it feel? My first day @ IMH wasnt much of a pleasant experience. It really feels like being in jail there! With the windows having not only grills, it has wire mash too! You know the feeling of being so confined? Moreover, the windows are really small and hardly is there any wind even though we are on the top floor. And all the doors have to be locked. It feels really like jail. I felt so confined that i almost teared. But then. Subsequent days was much better as we managed to get to know them slightly better. But in my heart is like it still feels so heart breaking to see them like that. They can't choose to be what they are now. I really empathize with them. It can be quite fun working with them. playing mj (mahjong), drawing, singing songs and all. It can be enjoyable. (: but its that kind of experience that you find it pleasant but yet you dont wish to have it a 2nd time?I got to meet dear in the midst of his 2 camps that are like back to back. Which was yesterday. Met him and flo @ IKEA. No wait. That wasnt it. Suppose to be at IKEA. but when i called, they said they were at Anchorpoint. ok. so i crossed over and saw them standing at the bridge waiting. Then they started to walk towards Queensway shopping centre la! Which i almost fainted! Cause the bus stop that i alighted from was like opposite Queensway SC! So i literally walked like 1 square. -.-!!!That besides the point. We finished looking for his jacket (nono. i should say windbreaker. It literally BREAK the wind. If u had seen how he tested if it was a good windbreaker. *faints*) Flo will understand what i mean. haha. Then we headed towards Vivo City! Flo parted from us there cause she had dinner date. Then dear and i went to walk around to get a new pair of shoes! (: We booked tickets to watch Music and Lyrics. Its really a should watch. Really funny but yet quite a nice storyline show. Ate Carl's jr too and it was of much fun. Oh yes. And he bought me a new skirt! Really pretty. But i havent taken a picture of it yet. I'll upload the pics in my next post. A day with him, (or should i say half a day) was really great. Enjoying his company. So hard to just go out on a date. A date like a date. Without going out to be like doing tasks like canteen shopping or whatsoever (not that it aint fun. Just spending time is precious.) He's packed with like sch, more meetings and all, now camps.. No more Friday dates. Just sat. which is like so precious. And it means so much. But this weekend is going to be impossible to meet cause he has his camps which he is already at now. These 2 weeks of attachment, i really want to just spend time home, spend time alone. Like need self time. When you come back from work, you're just so tired that you just want to rest. I dont have the time or energy to like do anything else. but there are like things which i need to do? Prepare for core meet this sat, check the feast day tickets before handing it over, search for songs to play for this sun's session, prepare things that are needed for this sun's session, etc etc. Im not like unhappy doing these things or tired or whatsoever. But i just want like time to myself. Like spending time with dear or like just catching up on my sleep or whatever. Dont want to pack like my whole weekend with things and then monday comes again and the whole week just starts again with the same thing. Sudden feeling of wanting to go to East Coast to cycle or just going to the airport to walk. Random. i know. But you know what?I dont care. It's not my yi-ma. She's already gone! Went to visit another person. Rah!
.she sings.
10:57 PM;
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
1 week of holiday. 3 days gone. 4 more days to go.Still sick. Still trying to recover. Been coughing so badly that my head feels like its going to explode. I really do hope it aint some serious problem. *cross fingers* Despite being so sick. i guess it was a good time to able to catch up with people. Last sat. went to watch Pursuit of Happyness with dear. Sun, stayed home but went dinner with dad and sis. and we watched Just Follow Law. On monday, went to meet my dearest tai tai babes (sarh was missing) @ Holland V's Coffee club. We had a really great time catching up and updating each other. Tues, stayed home to rest. But at night, we had a surprise belated birthday celebration for kevin. He really had a shock out of his life! haha. But he liked it and was happy. Which is good. (: Today, just stayed home and rest the whole day..... tmr, outing with my darling and honey! Yay! (: Wait. Kailing's missing!! Kai!! when are we meeting!! I miss you!!! This weekend's going to be real pack! This sat, there's Flood workshop, followed by shopping for groceries for canteen this sun. In between, squeeze time to meet dear. He said he'll do the shopping with me! (: yay yay!! If not i wont see him till about 2 weeks later or so. :( He's so busy. I rarely get to see him. Or even hear from him. *sigh* Why is his sch being so evil. I mean, why is the management so bad! Oh wells. Shall go drown my sorrows with H2O.....
.she sings.
9:12 PM;
Thursday, March 1, 2007
This week really passed real quick! 1 week's attachment posting at SGH has just gone by just like that!!!!! And im so glad! This week's been much joy to me!Yesterday.... I had my driving test! and i passed!!! My first attempt and i got 12 points!! Yay!!!!!!! im so so so so happy!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for all who have been supporting and praying for me! Esp flo! Thanks for coming all the way down to BBDC to keep me accompany!! (: Yay yay yay!! So happy!!!!! (: *screamsssssssssss* hahaha... But because of my driving test yesterday, i had to miss 3 hours of my work. And because of that.. I had to work almost 12 hours today! Instead of working from 7am to 3pm.. i worked from 7am to 6pm! Isnt it crazy??? But thankfully the staff nurses there and the ENs were really good! They "lightened" my load. and once they knew it was 6pm, they kept shooing me home! hahaha.. But i was really really very tired. I was like going to faint anytime!oh wells. the last day is tmr! and aint we glad! *grins* Nurse Gang! This coming wed! Sentosa!!!!Dont forget what we must do to Jenn k? wahahaha.. *evil laughs*For those who's been really concern about my previous post, im better. Dont worry. Im starting to learn how to look at things in a different way. And things between us are getting better! (: Things are improving. But continue to pray for us! (:PS: did you see the news about a 9 year old girl who got preg????????? This is madness!!
.she sings.
9:03 PM;