Monday, June 30, 2008
Too many events to talk about.
Fellowship. Shopping. Sick. Work. Test. Everything. Basically just want the photos! And i'm loving Ronney's D60! And it made me realised things i'll do and risk for photography! hahaha.
Cough is still here. Feel as if my lungs are going to be coughed out soon. Tmr i've got my IV re re test. Sigh. I really don't want to disappoint the people who have like put their hopes and trust in me. The tension is there. But all i can do is to do my best and let God take over all the rest. ((:
Got a msg from you. Made my heart skip a beat. In a state of confusion. The fear of losing you is so great. But i'm entrusting everything to God, and believe that he'll walk us through. Looking forward to seeing you. If you'll ever get to see this though. But i realised something that day at Sentosa. Talked to Pat. And i remembered telling her... When Theresa Ng asked if i ever regretted the breakup, i said no. Because it won't have made me into the person i am right now. God won't have been able to show his plans for us.
But that night, i realised... 1 thing i regretted wasn't the breakup. But instead it was telling you how much i truely love you. And how much i really didn't want the breakup. Because i love you till it hurts to let you go. If i could... i would have tell you how much i love you face to face right now. But i can't. So i shouted out into the sea... and hopefully my words were carried by the wind to you. Cause this is something i really wanted you to know. And i'll never ever forget the words you said, or should i say the poem that you made for me.
Fellowship. Shopping. Sick. Work. Test. Everything. Basically just want the photos! And i'm loving Ronney's D60! And it made me realised things i'll do and risk for photography! hahaha.
Cough is still here. Feel as if my lungs are going to be coughed out soon. Tmr i've got my IV re re test. Sigh. I really don't want to disappoint the people who have like put their hopes and trust in me. The tension is there. But all i can do is to do my best and let God take over all the rest. ((:
Got a msg from you. Made my heart skip a beat. In a state of confusion. The fear of losing you is so great. But i'm entrusting everything to God, and believe that he'll walk us through. Looking forward to seeing you. If you'll ever get to see this though. But i realised something that day at Sentosa. Talked to Pat. And i remembered telling her... When Theresa Ng asked if i ever regretted the breakup, i said no. Because it won't have made me into the person i am right now. God won't have been able to show his plans for us.
But that night, i realised... 1 thing i regretted wasn't the breakup. But instead it was telling you how much i truely love you. And how much i really didn't want the breakup. Because i love you till it hurts to let you go. If i could... i would have tell you how much i love you face to face right now. But i can't. So i shouted out into the sea... and hopefully my words were carried by the wind to you. Cause this is something i really wanted you to know. And i'll never ever forget the words you said, or should i say the poem that you made for me.
To think about you before i sleep
or feel for you each time you weep.
Stretch out my hand when you are down.
A dazzled smile that melts your frown.
Walk beside you as you shuffle,
through terrors, dangers and ten-fold trouble.
Lend a ear when you need a ear
till fearful, quivering voices disappear.
Though the light at the end remains to be seen
The wealth of love remains within.
Though tempest tossed storms by us sweep
The memories spent are ours to keep.
Becayse you are My treasure
Precious, priceless and Beyond measure.
I love you so, dear girl of Mine,
a gentle wish from your Valentine.
- Tom-cAAt
or feel for you each time you weep.
Stretch out my hand when you are down.
A dazzled smile that melts your frown.
Walk beside you as you shuffle,
through terrors, dangers and ten-fold trouble.
Lend a ear when you need a ear
till fearful, quivering voices disappear.
Though the light at the end remains to be seen
The wealth of love remains within.
Though tempest tossed storms by us sweep
The memories spent are ours to keep.
Becayse you are My treasure
Precious, priceless and Beyond measure.
I love you so, dear girl of Mine,
a gentle wish from your Valentine.
- Tom-cAAt
.she sings.
11:24 PM;
11:24 PM;
Friday, June 20, 2008
It's been a whole lot of crazy week. Con camp, work and etc. Been packed almost every single day. Crazy. Pure craziness i must say. Trying to hang in there.
Finally my off day. Just really wanted to be off off! like off from work, a day where i dont have to think about work or anything else.
Went swimming in the morning with Charms and Subra. then quick lunch before meeting Jem and Melvin tog and all went to catch Get Smart at Plaza Sing. It was hilarious i must say. After that they had to go for some interview thingy, so left me and Melvin. Waited for Ronney to come and then we headed down to Cine. Met Leroy, waited for Charms and Subra to meet us again, then we went to catch You don't mess with Zohan. It's another funny show that was quite sick actually. haha. But nonetheless we all had a good laugh.
Oh yes! and i saw Leon! Like it's been ages since i last saw him! Looking different and all. But the character and personality never changes. haha. ((: And how can i miss out? Met darling and da ge too! But they were rushing off to meet Da Ge's mum for dinner. Sorry for delaying time guys! hope you both werent late.
After the movie, had dinner and the rest headed back. Just felt like walking alone aimlessly. Suddenly missed Charles. His presence, his nonsense, his laughter. But i was fine. Didn't cry or anything. Just felt a little... Empty? Just needed some alone time. Some personal space. To walk, enjoy the life around me. Enjoy the world as it goes by me. It's good to have some self time you know? To pamper yourself, get in touch with yourself and at the same time connect with God.
I certainly had a good time. ((:
Next up for tmr! SOCCER MATCH!!!! SJC's KFC (Kanektas Football Club) is having their match! and i'm going there to be their supporter/ medic/ photographer! haha. Then after that movie with siblings, and dinner with parents then down to church for meeting. Phew! Long day ahead! going off! Photos shall upload some other time.
Ps... Failed my iv re-test. Great. Now waiting for re re test. Sucks. How demoralising this is.. Feel so useless.
Finally my off day. Just really wanted to be off off! like off from work, a day where i dont have to think about work or anything else.
Went swimming in the morning with Charms and Subra. then quick lunch before meeting Jem and Melvin tog and all went to catch Get Smart at Plaza Sing. It was hilarious i must say. After that they had to go for some interview thingy, so left me and Melvin. Waited for Ronney to come and then we headed down to Cine. Met Leroy, waited for Charms and Subra to meet us again, then we went to catch You don't mess with Zohan. It's another funny show that was quite sick actually. haha. But nonetheless we all had a good laugh.
Oh yes! and i saw Leon! Like it's been ages since i last saw him! Looking different and all. But the character and personality never changes. haha. ((: And how can i miss out? Met darling and da ge too! But they were rushing off to meet Da Ge's mum for dinner. Sorry for delaying time guys! hope you both werent late.
After the movie, had dinner and the rest headed back. Just felt like walking alone aimlessly. Suddenly missed Charles. His presence, his nonsense, his laughter. But i was fine. Didn't cry or anything. Just felt a little... Empty? Just needed some alone time. Some personal space. To walk, enjoy the life around me. Enjoy the world as it goes by me. It's good to have some self time you know? To pamper yourself, get in touch with yourself and at the same time connect with God.
I certainly had a good time. ((:
Next up for tmr! SOCCER MATCH!!!! SJC's KFC (Kanektas Football Club) is having their match! and i'm going there to be their supporter/ medic/ photographer! haha. Then after that movie with siblings, and dinner with parents then down to church for meeting. Phew! Long day ahead! going off! Photos shall upload some other time.
Ps... Failed my iv re-test. Great. Now waiting for re re test. Sucks. How demoralising this is.. Feel so useless.
.she sings.
11:36 PM;
11:36 PM;
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I'm feeling like shit now. Literally. I'm full of shit- feeling constipated. I'm having really bad cramps and i'm getting my fainting spells again. Well dones.
Slept for 3 hours last night before going to work as i was rushing out the worship aspect for the Confirmation Camp. Madness. Was like a walking zombie. But after my cups of teh-O, HELLO sunshine! I was awake! full of energy. Survived through another day of the Neuroscience programme. It's quite boring, as like lots of things they taught are quite bias towards Neuro Med! Rah.
After work, rushed off to get my toe nails done! it looks alive again! haha. After that went down to church for worship prac. It was quite intense with the sound system. But thank God everything's going well now. Had prac, was amazing. Sang until voice almost gone! was starting to feel tired and then after prac, i felt it! It's here! Monthly aunty's arrival. Damnit. Cramped like mad at Church. Cleared the room, packed up and left almost like 12.15am? I think we're so screwed. Gosh.
Back home, bathe. But then got to prepare the remaining stuff for the camp. *breathes in and out*
Yes Jojo, i found your blog. Ain't that difficult you know. Esp like we have a common factor? A.K.A, Maureen? haha. And it's a typical Kelvin answer that he gave you!! It's Kelvin you're talking about la! haha. One joker. Haha. Yes Jojo, i'm right. Not slightly right. haha. Try letting loose a little, you'll see the difference. And when you feel it's time again, tug on the strings once more. ((:
I'm sleepy. Oh yes. did i mentioned i failed my I/V test? Ver lousy i feel. i muts have don really badly.
Slept for 3 hours last night before going to work as i was rushing out the worship aspect for the Confirmation Camp. Madness. Was like a walking zombie. But after my cups of teh-O, HELLO sunshine! I was awake! full of energy. Survived through another day of the Neuroscience programme. It's quite boring, as like lots of things they taught are quite bias towards Neuro Med! Rah.
After work, rushed off to get my toe nails done! it looks alive again! haha. After that went down to church for worship prac. It was quite intense with the sound system. But thank God everything's going well now. Had prac, was amazing. Sang until voice almost gone! was starting to feel tired and then after prac, i felt it! It's here! Monthly aunty's arrival. Damnit. Cramped like mad at Church. Cleared the room, packed up and left almost like 12.15am? I think we're so screwed. Gosh.
Back home, bathe. But then got to prepare the remaining stuff for the camp. *breathes in and out*
Yes Jojo, i found your blog. Ain't that difficult you know. Esp like we have a common factor? A.K.A, Maureen? haha. And it's a typical Kelvin answer that he gave you!! It's Kelvin you're talking about la! haha. One joker. Haha. Yes Jojo, i'm right. Not slightly right. haha. Try letting loose a little, you'll see the difference. And when you feel it's time again, tug on the strings once more. ((:
I'm sleepy. Oh yes. did i mentioned i failed my I/V test? Ver lousy i feel. i muts have don really badly.
.she sings.
1:43 AM;
1:43 AM;
Monday, June 9, 2008
Sunday (080608):
This is crazy. It's con camp week! Totally madness! Spiritual prep this morning before going to work- PM shift today. Really sucks to work on a Sunday. But oh wells, welcome to the life of a nurse!
Martin was the speaker for the day. While i was tying my hair and going to leave.. he was just sharing about he bumping into the charasmatic renewal group ppl- and how they mentioned that the prayer group "died". somehow i knew i was to expect something. and true enough it did. Martin asked "Where's Charles!" and i looked up with him looking at me, and so did everyone else in the room. You should have noticed the faces around- some of the "oh shit! Martin said the wrong thing!" and some of the "Oh no!! Why that qn!" and also "Shit shit shit, is Val ok?" and the list of the different expressions went on.. Of course i had to react fast. With a quick breath in, and a sunshine smile, "He's in France! (:" and there we go. (: I'm ok. Or was it just an act. But i'm ok. We're still friends right?
First thing i saw this afternoon when i went to work was our dear Jojo, holding a plastic cup and looking damn run-down. And all she could reply was "Don't look at me like that. I'm damn constipated" haha. Poor Jojo la! And she was on her way to down some lactulose and senna. And all her attempt to shit. hahas. The day went on with the urge to stuff some MnMs into my ears! RAH!!!!!! All so to block out some unwanted noise.
Anyway.....
A note to JoJo:
Read your blog. And all i want to say that in a R/S it's like flying a kite. If you hold the string too tightly, it'll snap. But if you hold it too loose, you might lose it. What i'm trying to say that it's not easy to tug the string in the perfect way. But sometimes, we got to know when to tighten it and when to let it free a little. If not the r/s can be easily ruined. I'm not some love guru. but just something i thought of sharing with you. It maybe bullshit to you, or like what the hell is val talking, but nonetheless, hope you're feeling better! (:
A note to Ronn:
Hey heysss.. Read your blog. So i thought i'll dedicate this part of my entry to you. Let's just put it this way. You've just started a new chapter in sch, just got confirmed last year and you've stepped up really quickly in the ministry. In coming forth to be part of the worship team and taking a bigger role in being a worship leader. Learning to grow and being the youngest in the team, it's difficult to adapt. You're someone who's really blessed by God with many talents. But you have to take a step at a time. You're still young thats why we let you have a chance to be in 2 different areas in the Worship Team- Drums and vocals. To let you develop that gift that God has given you. So don't neglect either talents. I know you love singing lots, but hey, your gift of the drums? Yea? (: And i want to say and affirm you is that you're not being distant from your friends and people. But! It's changes. Changes that has happened ever since sch started and stepping into a higher level in the ministry. It's changes and its something that you're trying to grapple with. trust me. i went through it. I cried through it. literally. It wasn't easy. Because Val hates changes. But that's life. You have to take baby steps and learn. to adapt. Slowly. ((: And know that your friends and people around you are still with you! ((: I know it has been a pretty rough path for you this period of time. Trying to step out of the shadow of your past r/s, learning to grow in a new environment, the upcoming scholarship and etc. But trust that the Lord will carry you through yea? Big Hugs!
Photossss!!!! This is what you get when the worship team goes mad.. haha! Enjoy!
The CONNECTors!
*The infrared*
*The wireless*
*The bluetooth*
Monday (090608):
Today had I/V test. Really shitty. don't know how i'll do. Sigh.. Work's making me distant from my nurse gang. Really missing them much! So hard to catch up tog. Sigh.... Tingting's going army soon too. Hardly get to see them. Even though Jenn's ward's just 1 floor directly above mine, i still dont get to see her much either.
Note to Nurse Gang... I'm missing you guys lots!!! *sniffs*
PS: *psst* its 3 more days to CONFIRMATION CAMP 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is crazy. It's con camp week! Totally madness! Spiritual prep this morning before going to work- PM shift today. Really sucks to work on a Sunday. But oh wells, welcome to the life of a nurse!
Martin was the speaker for the day. While i was tying my hair and going to leave.. he was just sharing about he bumping into the charasmatic renewal group ppl- and how they mentioned that the prayer group "died". somehow i knew i was to expect something. and true enough it did. Martin asked "Where's Charles!" and i looked up with him looking at me, and so did everyone else in the room. You should have noticed the faces around- some of the "oh shit! Martin said the wrong thing!" and some of the "Oh no!! Why that qn!" and also "Shit shit shit, is Val ok?" and the list of the different expressions went on.. Of course i had to react fast. With a quick breath in, and a sunshine smile, "He's in France! (:" and there we go. (: I'm ok. Or was it just an act. But i'm ok. We're still friends right?
First thing i saw this afternoon when i went to work was our dear Jojo, holding a plastic cup and looking damn run-down. And all she could reply was "Don't look at me like that. I'm damn constipated" haha. Poor Jojo la! And she was on her way to down some lactulose and senna. And all her attempt to shit. hahas. The day went on with the urge to stuff some MnMs into my ears! RAH!!!!!! All so to block out some unwanted noise.
Anyway.....
A note to JoJo:
Read your blog. And all i want to say that in a R/S it's like flying a kite. If you hold the string too tightly, it'll snap. But if you hold it too loose, you might lose it. What i'm trying to say that it's not easy to tug the string in the perfect way. But sometimes, we got to know when to tighten it and when to let it free a little. If not the r/s can be easily ruined. I'm not some love guru. but just something i thought of sharing with you. It maybe bullshit to you, or like what the hell is val talking, but nonetheless, hope you're feeling better! (:
A note to Ronn:
Hey heysss.. Read your blog. So i thought i'll dedicate this part of my entry to you. Let's just put it this way. You've just started a new chapter in sch, just got confirmed last year and you've stepped up really quickly in the ministry. In coming forth to be part of the worship team and taking a bigger role in being a worship leader. Learning to grow and being the youngest in the team, it's difficult to adapt. You're someone who's really blessed by God with many talents. But you have to take a step at a time. You're still young thats why we let you have a chance to be in 2 different areas in the Worship Team- Drums and vocals. To let you develop that gift that God has given you. So don't neglect either talents. I know you love singing lots, but hey, your gift of the drums? Yea? (: And i want to say and affirm you is that you're not being distant from your friends and people. But! It's changes. Changes that has happened ever since sch started and stepping into a higher level in the ministry. It's changes and its something that you're trying to grapple with. trust me. i went through it. I cried through it. literally. It wasn't easy. Because Val hates changes. But that's life. You have to take baby steps and learn. to adapt. Slowly. ((: And know that your friends and people around you are still with you! ((: I know it has been a pretty rough path for you this period of time. Trying to step out of the shadow of your past r/s, learning to grow in a new environment, the upcoming scholarship and etc. But trust that the Lord will carry you through yea? Big Hugs!
Photossss!!!! This is what you get when the worship team goes mad.. haha! Enjoy!
The CONNECTors!
*The infrared*
*The wireless*
*The bluetooth*
Monday (090608):
Today had I/V test. Really shitty. don't know how i'll do. Sigh.. Work's making me distant from my nurse gang. Really missing them much! So hard to catch up tog. Sigh.... Tingting's going army soon too. Hardly get to see them. Even though Jenn's ward's just 1 floor directly above mine, i still dont get to see her much either.
Note to Nurse Gang... I'm missing you guys lots!!! *sniffs*
PS: *psst* its 3 more days to CONFIRMATION CAMP 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.she sings.
12:04 AM;
12:04 AM;